Thoughts.....

So I have been thinking about everything with how I haven't been able to get pregnant.... This time of the year is hard because I would love to have a baby in my arms to be honest! It's been a hard year emotionally. I don't really talk about it much... I rather not. I guess I don't want to get my hopes up and then get disappointed again. Earlier this year We thought we were pregnant but then through a bunch of stuff we found out I have a split uterus and a couple other things. After several Dr visits and a horrible experience at a specialist in Pittsburgh that all I really learned was that I should be able to   get pregnant no problem.... Which was good news, but was not happy with the Dr who I saw that just sat there and read off from a report from the Dr here in Erie and was rather rude when Dan tried to ask a question. Honestly I was ready to run from the room in the first 3 minutes of the maybe 10 minute consultation we had with him.... Anyways....
 Dan and I have talked about it all and both of us don't want to spend a bunch of money trying to get pregnant and we rather just leave it in God's hands and see what kind of things He will do! :) I know God is in control of this all! At times it is hard! ( I have to be honest!) Maybe there's a reason we haven't been able to have a baby that we can't see yet. I don't know!
 I have my nieces and nephews that I get to spoil and God puts little friends in my life that I get to spoil too! :)
One verse I keep thinking about but I don't remember where it's found right off the top of my head is "He will make the barren woman a mother to thousands". Or something along those lines... That was the first verse that went through my mind that I had read years ago when I was finding all the stuff that is "special" about me.
 This time of the year I wonder what it would have been like to be the mother to the Son of God! He was sinless... That is a mind boggling thing right there! What would that have been like?! And how can I be more like Christ and live my life to become more like him each day?

 I know this is a bunch of random stuff! I have been doing a lot of thinking! :) (As usual!)